Kisses paid with kisses. hugs paid with hugs.
Check,
Action movie watched with loves and joys.
Check,
Argued and Bad times.
Check,
Overnight in Overseas.
Check,
The Grave of the elders and light chat
Check,
Reunited with an old, nice, warm friend.
Check,
Argued over and over again.
Check,
Apologizes and overflowing tears.
Check,
Kisses paid with kisses. Hugs paid with hugs.
Check.
Selasa, 30 Desember 2008
Kamis, 20 November 2008
Lost parts of the memory part. 1
Two persons standing on a crossroads. Staring at each other. No sign of letting go. Hold their breath. Inhaling. Exhaling. It's raining hard. The wind blows like katrina storm. They are counting from one to infinity, waiting for the right time to make a move.
"how long will you stand there?"
"what about you?"
"it's none of your business"
"so the same goes for me"
"shit, you're truly annoying"
"cut the talk, what do you want?"
"....."
"spit it out, motherfucker"
"what? you call me motherfucker asshole?"
"so what are you if you aren't?"
"shit, yo always know how to raise the atmosphere"
"so, how long it has been since that day?"
"10 years, 4 months, 26 days, 6 hours, 45 minutes"
"whoa you have one hell of a memory there"
"sure i have"
"enough. Tell me what do you want. i don't have much time"
"I think i'll take the challenge"
"Are yo sure about that?"
"Yes. Very nice and clear"
"Do you realize the risks?"
"I understand that clearly. i have no intention to quit it"
"That's your problem. All by yourself"
"What?"
"You always took decisions by yourself. You never care for the others' feelings"
"I have nobody"
"Yes you have"
"That wouldn't change my decision"
"If that's what you wished for, then so be it"
One man walks away, leaving the other completely alone on that dark, cold crossroads. emotions stirred into an unimaginary level. Confused by the sudden change of his friend's mind. Soon, He'll lose a friend. Closest friend.
"how long will you stand there?"
"what about you?"
"it's none of your business"
"so the same goes for me"
"shit, you're truly annoying"
"cut the talk, what do you want?"
"....."
"spit it out, motherfucker"
"what? you call me motherfucker asshole?"
"so what are you if you aren't?"
"shit, yo always know how to raise the atmosphere"
"so, how long it has been since that day?"
"10 years, 4 months, 26 days, 6 hours, 45 minutes"
"whoa you have one hell of a memory there"
"sure i have"
"enough. Tell me what do you want. i don't have much time"
"I think i'll take the challenge"
"Are yo sure about that?"
"Yes. Very nice and clear"
"Do you realize the risks?"
"I understand that clearly. i have no intention to quit it"
"That's your problem. All by yourself"
"What?"
"You always took decisions by yourself. You never care for the others' feelings"
"I have nobody"
"Yes you have"
"That wouldn't change my decision"
"If that's what you wished for, then so be it"
One man walks away, leaving the other completely alone on that dark, cold crossroads. emotions stirred into an unimaginary level. Confused by the sudden change of his friend's mind. Soon, He'll lose a friend. Closest friend.
Jumat, 07 November 2008
Heavenly conflict 2
And so the boy leaves the girl for his dream. the one and only dream that sounds logical among other surreal condition around the world. Freedom. it's very easy to say but sure it's almost impossible to have in this country. he sacrificed everything. Life, Love, Everything. his girl didn't want to release him. even when he promised to come back safe and sound after he get his dream.
"don't go away, i beg you. please stay here with me"
"not a chance, dear. i can't give up that easy"
"so you're ready lo lost me?"
"even god can't hold me back"
"you said my presence is more than god"
"i never said you're more than my dream"
"How could you...?!"
"that's the end. i'll never ask you to come back. don't accept it even if i'm begging for it"
[Beep....Beep....Beep....]
Blinded by his urge. he walk beyond the iron curtain. fly around the world. seeking every pocket of the continents. learning from the masters. sharing ideologies. his feelings toward his girl pushed and sharpen him into shape. he still cannot find his dream. even when he become a leader of a country. he thought that he'd find his dream with creating one neation earth. one nation under him. he needs more men, followers, minds, and adrenaline. only one thing he's lacking. love. though his love has become rotten and dull, Holed and shattered.
"night seems to be dead, this fullness feels so empty"
"dream never be reached, it's close yet very far"
his country now is as big as babylon. great empire stretches from europe to china across the ocean ended on america's east coast. the greatest yet to be seen on humanity's history. the finish line is the iron curtain. sure it brings back all the bittersweet memories. he prepares for the final step.
"this is it"
"this is where it all begins, and in this place it will end"
so the end is approaching both him and her. both with their own weapon, both with their own reasons. it's about the time the curtain will fall.
"don't go away, i beg you. please stay here with me"
"not a chance, dear. i can't give up that easy"
"so you're ready lo lost me?"
"even god can't hold me back"
"you said my presence is more than god"
"i never said you're more than my dream"
"How could you...?!"
"that's the end. i'll never ask you to come back. don't accept it even if i'm begging for it"
[Beep....Beep....Beep....]
Blinded by his urge. he walk beyond the iron curtain. fly around the world. seeking every pocket of the continents. learning from the masters. sharing ideologies. his feelings toward his girl pushed and sharpen him into shape. he still cannot find his dream. even when he become a leader of a country. he thought that he'd find his dream with creating one neation earth. one nation under him. he needs more men, followers, minds, and adrenaline. only one thing he's lacking. love. though his love has become rotten and dull, Holed and shattered.
"night seems to be dead, this fullness feels so empty"
"dream never be reached, it's close yet very far"
his country now is as big as babylon. great empire stretches from europe to china across the ocean ended on america's east coast. the greatest yet to be seen on humanity's history. the finish line is the iron curtain. sure it brings back all the bittersweet memories. he prepares for the final step.
"this is it"
"this is where it all begins, and in this place it will end"
so the end is approaching both him and her. both with their own weapon, both with their own reasons. it's about the time the curtain will fall.
Rabu, 05 November 2008
Heavenly Conflict
dark, damp wheater. eerie wind seeps through my clothes. it's been a while since your departure. 5 minutes sure feels like forever. cigarettes won't make any difference, dear. and it really didn't make difference. just laid low here under the oak tree that once we've treasured. the past seems so sweet when we still have all the things we need. running directless, shouting like hell, laughing like there's no tomorrow.
time went by so fast. we're not gonna make it if we didn't keep track of it. memories with you strumming in my mind, shaking my consciousness. your departure is unbearable. i think my heart was gonna be exploded but i have a fuckin mighty heart. i'll give up that easy.
"All my bags are packed, I'm ready to go"
"I'm sitting here outside your door"
"I hate to wake you up and say goodbye"
Yes, I hate to wake you up, my dear. your presence means life to me. my departure is going to rip all the times we've spent. the good ones, bad ones, average ones, it'll all vanish into the dark and cold siberian sky.
But i need to find it, my love. my goal isn't here. far beyond this iron curtain lies our dream. sitting motionlessly. waiting for us to capture it. yes i know exactly what you feel, but you're the one who told me to chase my own dream right? i think i couldn't give you any better reasons for my departure this time. I'll make it fast, dear. and i'll make it last.
"It's not a cry that you hear at night"
"It's not somebody who've seen the light"
"It's a cold and it's a broken vow"
And so, my dear. iron curtain can't hold they down. their enemy is their own will. now, let the missiles curtain fall once again onto the fruit of humanity.
As always. You always reap what you sow.
time went by so fast. we're not gonna make it if we didn't keep track of it. memories with you strumming in my mind, shaking my consciousness. your departure is unbearable. i think my heart was gonna be exploded but i have a fuckin mighty heart. i'll give up that easy.
"All my bags are packed, I'm ready to go"
"I'm sitting here outside your door"
"I hate to wake you up and say goodbye"
Yes, I hate to wake you up, my dear. your presence means life to me. my departure is going to rip all the times we've spent. the good ones, bad ones, average ones, it'll all vanish into the dark and cold siberian sky.
But i need to find it, my love. my goal isn't here. far beyond this iron curtain lies our dream. sitting motionlessly. waiting for us to capture it. yes i know exactly what you feel, but you're the one who told me to chase my own dream right? i think i couldn't give you any better reasons for my departure this time. I'll make it fast, dear. and i'll make it last.
"It's not a cry that you hear at night"
"It's not somebody who've seen the light"
"It's a cold and it's a broken vow"
And so, my dear. iron curtain can't hold they down. their enemy is their own will. now, let the missiles curtain fall once again onto the fruit of humanity.
As always. You always reap what you sow.
Minggu, 05 Oktober 2008
Imaginary rhymes
brain itself is full of golds
lots of thought and meant to be sold.
when you feel the need to empty your mind
that's the time you're falling behind.
remember the time when i moved you?
the holy darkness was moving too.
blood, sweat, tears, and pain
miserable things coming like rain.
times went faster as reality graze your mind
sanity and cosciousness are hard to find.
killing boredom, erasing phantom
saying gibberish resisting your eyes to be blind.
water flows rapidly, from the river to the sea
waves are so harsh like you've ever wanted to be.
pushing, pulling, see how your nerve system work
realize it's already 6 a.m, get up jerk.
Hmph, hope to see you in better condition, Old man.
lots of thought and meant to be sold.
when you feel the need to empty your mind
that's the time you're falling behind.
remember the time when i moved you?
the holy darkness was moving too.
blood, sweat, tears, and pain
miserable things coming like rain.
times went faster as reality graze your mind
sanity and cosciousness are hard to find.
killing boredom, erasing phantom
saying gibberish resisting your eyes to be blind.
water flows rapidly, from the river to the sea
waves are so harsh like you've ever wanted to be.
pushing, pulling, see how your nerve system work
realize it's already 6 a.m, get up jerk.
Hmph, hope to see you in better condition, Old man.
Jumat, 26 September 2008
Selasa, 23 September 2008
Siberian winter
Cold.
Tired.
Despair.
Panic.
Asphyxiated.
Angered.
minus 20 degrees below zero, mind's going blank.
Help me, help me, help me.
Tired.
Despair.
Panic.
Asphyxiated.
Angered.
minus 20 degrees below zero, mind's going blank.
Help me, help me, help me.
Jumat, 19 September 2008
Lover's tale
Hey,
What's your name? where do you come from?
i'm so glad to talk to you.
are you a transfer student? how come i never saw you?
let's take a walk. i'll introduce you to this environment.
Hey,
you want to share some problems? come on, who knows if i can help you.
friends are meant to share their problem.
come on, just spit it out.
i'm here. your secrets aren't going to be leaked.
Hey,
what? are you serious?
you know, i knew that i love you from pur first meeting too.
i think we're made to be together.
from now on. i'll protect you like my own life.
precious life.
Hey,
what time is it now? it's 6 in the morning, i guess.
i feel tired. so tired.
it's an obsession. yes it is absolutely an obsession.
how come i became like this?
she don't even want to know my name.
i guess i'll continue my sleep.
it's still a long long way for the armageddon to come.
Life is hard for sure.
What's your name? where do you come from?
i'm so glad to talk to you.
are you a transfer student? how come i never saw you?
let's take a walk. i'll introduce you to this environment.
Hey,
you want to share some problems? come on, who knows if i can help you.
friends are meant to share their problem.
come on, just spit it out.
i'm here. your secrets aren't going to be leaked.
Hey,
what? are you serious?
you know, i knew that i love you from pur first meeting too.
i think we're made to be together.
from now on. i'll protect you like my own life.
precious life.
Hey,
what time is it now? it's 6 in the morning, i guess.
i feel tired. so tired.
it's an obsession. yes it is absolutely an obsession.
how come i became like this?
she don't even want to know my name.
i guess i'll continue my sleep.
it's still a long long way for the armageddon to come.
Life is hard for sure.
Senin, 15 September 2008
what can save you when you can't save yourself?
knock,
knock,
Hello.
Are you there?
i know you're there.
what's the point of hiding? doing such thing can't lead you to a better condition. it gives you a secure feeling but hey, i still can see you from here.
maybe my brain is smaller than yours. or my intelligence is far inferior. but i have what yo don't have. what you don't deserve to have. you can do anything. wag your tail any way you wanted. but in the end it cannot save you.
like this.
i like this situation.
now you maybe numb from freezing. or asphyxiated from the poisonous air. but you know what? it didn't affect me. i'm stronger in this kind of situation.
now, just hand yourself to me.
it's alright.
i don't want any violence or spilled bloods for nothing. i just want to do my job.
come on. i can wait. i don't hesitate to wait like this.
but everybody can't.
you know you don't want to enrage averybody.
hand yourself. now.
i can see where you are. and i'm pointing my gun right to your head.
i know. intelligence worth more than diamonds.
but what can intelligence do in this kind of situation?
(Hotel Moscow, Vladivostok. 23rd of July 2054. Nuclear Warfare.)
knock,
Hello.
Are you there?
i know you're there.
what's the point of hiding? doing such thing can't lead you to a better condition. it gives you a secure feeling but hey, i still can see you from here.
maybe my brain is smaller than yours. or my intelligence is far inferior. but i have what yo don't have. what you don't deserve to have. you can do anything. wag your tail any way you wanted. but in the end it cannot save you.
like this.
i like this situation.
now you maybe numb from freezing. or asphyxiated from the poisonous air. but you know what? it didn't affect me. i'm stronger in this kind of situation.
now, just hand yourself to me.
it's alright.
i don't want any violence or spilled bloods for nothing. i just want to do my job.
come on. i can wait. i don't hesitate to wait like this.
but everybody can't.
you know you don't want to enrage averybody.
hand yourself. now.
i can see where you are. and i'm pointing my gun right to your head.
i know. intelligence worth more than diamonds.
but what can intelligence do in this kind of situation?
(Hotel Moscow, Vladivostok. 23rd of July 2054. Nuclear Warfare.)
Sabtu, 13 September 2008
sounds from the depth of the heart
TIRED.
tired.
Tired.
tireD.
soo tired. what else is worse than dodging missiles?
tired.
Tired.
tireD.
soo tired. what else is worse than dodging missiles?
Kamis, 11 September 2008
Modern minds and forgotten past
Simplicity
Practical?
Easy to operate
Futuristic?
Promiscuous
Cheap?
Easy to find
Blinding?
Binding?
Hard to find
Expensive?
Nourishing?
Challenging
Worn out
Else?
modern mind collides with forgotten past
stream of consciousness go fast
put no one to blame and disregard the sins.
competing blindly without anyone wins
Peace sells but wars are easier to find
coup d'etat is so easy just like pouring the wine
going faster to the space like it's something cool
but forget the fact that they're all the fools.
Practical?
Easy to operate
Futuristic?
Promiscuous
Cheap?
Easy to find
Blinding?
Binding?
Hard to find
Expensive?
Nourishing?
Challenging
Worn out
Else?
modern mind collides with forgotten past
stream of consciousness go fast
put no one to blame and disregard the sins.
competing blindly without anyone wins
Peace sells but wars are easier to find
coup d'etat is so easy just like pouring the wine
going faster to the space like it's something cool
but forget the fact that they're all the fools.
Senin, 08 September 2008
The fruit of humanity
ticking clock, dripping sweat
no lights, no sounds, lack of air
but still breathing. no one knows why
tortured like hell, blood spilled
just how many years i've been here?
i'd rather die. whether it's quickly or slowly
i just want to die
rather than trapped in this dark room
knock, knock, knock
hello...? anybody out there...?
no answer
fuck
maybe they're dead
maybe they die several days ago
or maybe they die before i was trapped in this room
no one knew
even me
you
or anyone else
i'll wait here
waiting for death to come to me
let me die and rot away just like them. the people on the outside
it's getting darker and darker
more difficult to breathe
i feel a little (cough) dizzy here
i think it's about that time
what's worse than die in a box?
far from home
far from earth
no one responded
here, 2.000.000.000 light years from the milky way
where cosmic dust and quasars are rarely seen
houston closes her eyes
goodbye, humanity
i'm going to sleep
a long, long sleep.
..............(beep)......
no lights, no sounds, lack of air
but still breathing. no one knows why
tortured like hell, blood spilled
just how many years i've been here?
i'd rather die. whether it's quickly or slowly
i just want to die
rather than trapped in this dark room
knock, knock, knock
hello...? anybody out there...?
no answer
fuck
maybe they're dead
maybe they die several days ago
or maybe they die before i was trapped in this room
no one knew
even me
you
or anyone else
i'll wait here
waiting for death to come to me
let me die and rot away just like them. the people on the outside
it's getting darker and darker
more difficult to breathe
i feel a little (cough) dizzy here
i think it's about that time
what's worse than die in a box?
far from home
far from earth
no one responded
here, 2.000.000.000 light years from the milky way
where cosmic dust and quasars are rarely seen
houston closes her eyes
goodbye, humanity
i'm going to sleep
a long, long sleep.
..............(beep)......
starting of an epic wasted times
Hello (buzz) can anybody hear me?
this is houston speaking.
report to california's base immediately.
we're troubled here, ran out of gas.
reporting casualties (beep), all nine crews were found dead.
i repeat, (buzz) all nine crews were dead.
"come on Base, help us!"
"are you crazy kid? give me back that radio"
"but we're all gonna die here!"
"if we're all gonna die here, at least die with dignity"
"what does dignity do with dead?"
"there's nothing left for us if we die"
"god didn't want us to give up "
"so, why he put us in such circumstance?"
"..."
space dust, cosmic light, electric sun beam.
asteroid belt, gamma rays, black hole.
nine men's souls either meant to be wasted, nor dumped.
the purpose of their existence was just to be forgotten.
so, life runs normal. just like you, just like me.
this is houston speaking.
report to california's base immediately.
we're troubled here, ran out of gas.
reporting casualties (beep), all nine crews were found dead.
i repeat, (buzz) all nine crews were dead.
"come on Base, help us!"
"are you crazy kid? give me back that radio"
"but we're all gonna die here!"
"if we're all gonna die here, at least die with dignity"
"what does dignity do with dead?"
"there's nothing left for us if we die"
"god didn't want us to give up "
"so, why he put us in such circumstance?"
"..."
space dust, cosmic light, electric sun beam.
asteroid belt, gamma rays, black hole.
nine men's souls either meant to be wasted, nor dumped.
the purpose of their existence was just to be forgotten.
so, life runs normal. just like you, just like me.
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